i feel hypothetical right now

i don't know what that entails

its one of those nights where i wish i could unzip my skin and step out for a bit
pretend it was a shell
and leave everything back inside the shell
and exist outside myself for a little
be unaffected by thing
not retain them or think about them or anything
i kind of wish i could just let stuff happen
stop thinking for a little bit
sleep walk and talk and make friends and not alienate anyone

i'm going to alienate everyone eventually
i don't know why
but i probably will
and maybe by then i'll have finished in cold blood

haha i fucking hate this
whats it called....
priorities
fuck those